Get your heart fixed, I will get my knee fixed.
After my brutal beating from complete strangers not 15 steps from my back door- my view of people has changed; I am more cautious and diligent. More closed off and reserved.
After experiencing the most lonesome birthday, Christmas, new year lonely and loneliest time around others ie; being excluded, masqueraded as a worthless good for nothing loser as well as the black sheep and broken down to the point of insanity while just plain being left out while being spoken about behind my back. I am tired of this but I see it hasn’t and probably won’t change. So! I have one thing to say. Four words that sum up what I’ve realized.
Just four: “Ya’ll should be ashamed.”
It seems as though bullying is a common theme and exclusionary behaviours to a girl or a boy who is already suffering. I wouldn’t wish the feelings I feel against my greatest enemy. That’s how powerful words and actions affect me emotionally. Psychologically and mentally too. Not. Okay. So. No pity parties for Khalina. I am responsible for my words my actions and the ripple effect it may have on others. I am fully and honestly taking a look at myself and owning up to ME. I am Khalina. I am responsible for the choices I made and will make. No one put a gun to my head. I chose certain things.
I take full responsibility and I am no longer pitying myself. I am doing this for me and for my daughter. As well as my best friend (jwg) you know who you are. Roxane. momma 🐻 and my sensitive Nanouche 🫂-AND ANY other family who has taken MY girl into their hearts. ❤️ 🧡 💛 💚 💙 💜 🤍 🖤 🤎💕 💝💘💖💗💓❤️🔥❤️🩹 💔❣️💞💟
I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are wonderful people and the world needs more people like you!
🌸 🌺 🌹 💐 🌹 🥀 ☀️ xoxo
Khalina (sr). 😊