I Am

Inspired by Sylvia Plath

I am unsure how to begin

I am tear meet floor

I am trying not to fall apart

I am fake it til you make it

I am hating that saying…

I am sheepishly shy but deep like ocean

I am go home and kiss your mother*

I am a million things wrapped inside this body

I am too smart for my own good

I know what life is about

I am scared of what I’ve learned…

I Am.

I am numb parlayed trigger finger. 

I am cold creeping bloodstream. 

I am youth wrapped inside elderly bones. 

I am nobody.

I am somebody.

I am the pale blue sky

I am the clouds getting pushed around..

I am tree reaching up to the sky for nothing. 

I am sidewalk cracked for no reason at all. 

I am on the street laughing to myself. 

I am dirt on metal. 

I am puddle of thoughts. 

I am thirteen cacti in a row. Crooked like my spine… I am.

I am aching. I am still smiling.

I am someone you might want to meet. 

I am blinds are open. 

I am peer inside at a stranger

I am missing you.

I am don't forget to put it in the fridge 

I am rotten thoughts. 

I am throw out the spoiled milk and vegetables

I am craving you like a morning coffee and cigarette

I am scared of almost everything

I am rigid like a stranger. I am his umbrella.

I am trying to keep you clean and dry

I am failing

I am it’s all my fault

I am it’s not my fault

I am torn ACL LCL and Meniscus

I am locked knee

I am shrieks of pain

I am..

I am 2:45am why am I not tired

I am carnival of thoughts. 

I am please let me sleep

I am please just let me sleep

I am

I am lucid dreams that reoccur

I am run away before you care

I am paralyzed nightmare

I am dying in all my dreams

I am how did I get here?

I am waking up forgetting where I am

I am sober.

I am feeling every spine tingling spasms

I am take as directed

I am capable

I am competent…but

I am needed to be reminded of that

I am back on that same street

I am wishing you could see what I see

I am.

I am numb feet- pins and needles

I am a collage of pity

I am run away

I am clingy to a fault

I am scared you will leave

I am scared to leave———my bed

I am how do I function

I am trying to be a normal person

I am 

I am a personality disorder wrapped in a smile

I am 14 day bruises

I am trying

I am trying to live

I am trying to die no more

I am trying to do anything but repeat the past

I am.

I am a poor excuse

I am excuse after excuse

I am out of excuses

I am slave labour for the rest of my life

I am writing and wondering why I try

I am a child inside

I am wanting your approval

I am sonnet in pitch black storm

I am old soul for the new world order

I am smarter than I look

I am questioning everything I see and do

I am why are you leaving me here alone?

I am in the wrong timezone 

I am in the right place

I am unsure of these words

I am flip of a switch

I am… I don’t know, but I want to find out.

I am 

I am Khalina.